So, can we just like, call this summer break already?

I’m fairly sure that kids won’t be going back to school this year. And as a parent that’s perfectly fine with me. I don’t even pretend to know what all needs to be done as far as the end of the school year from the school’s perspective, but as for me, it would really alleviate a tiny amount of my stress.

I honestly don’t want my big kid to finish out the school year. I don’t think the country has a grasp on what is fully going on, or what do to about it. I want to flatten the curve as much as possible. And let’s be real here, not having to set an alarm, or check backpacks, or pack lunches is pretty dang rad! I am not sad about the end of all of these things for now.

However as a kindergarten mom there are a few things I am sad about. Things I hadn’t even thought of until today. Does my son’s school have a kindergarten graduation ceremony? Will we miss it? I fear even if they do we will sadly miss it, because it will unfortunately be canceled. He will miss out on time with all of his school friends on the playground. We have already missed his music program we were all so excited for. These are all things that were taken from my son, and quite honestly from his father and I as well. These are things we will never be able to get back. He is our first and for us these things are special!

I am ready for summer to officially start, although I honestly have no idea what that means anymore. Is it going to mean doing the same old stuff around the house we’ve been doing for however many weeks we’ve already been here, only hotter? Will we even be able to shop for fun-in-the-at-home-sun items? Will this summer consist of hot kids playing in a water hose because our rural area wasn’t able to get plastic kiddie pools this year? And if our out of the way area can even get luxuries like that, how fast will they be sold out, as many who usually utilize public pools won’t be allowed to go to the pools (if they even open) and have to find ways to stay cool at home? Will this be the summer of “swimming” in the bathtub?

All this uncertainty really hurts my mama heart. I don’t really know what to tell my kids anymore. I am currently taking it day by day, and I guess that’s all I can do! So for any other mama’s who feel like I do, know you’re not alone! We will all get through this, our kids will love us just the same, and everything is going to be just fine one day. But until then stay home, stay safe, and wash your dang hands!